Yep. I should do something about this sometime.
I'd go on a rambling rant about it, but I'd rather just tell people to shut the hell up already.
Not much happened over the summer, went on a few dates over the summer with this one girl, but things really didn't spark between us (well she seemed to feel different, but I wasn't too into her.) I finally stopped talking to her after she pulled off some really stupid things on our last meet up. Needless to say I've learned a few things from that experience, and I really can't say it's all too negative really. It was fun while it lasted, and at least I can take that. Now I just have to find some more dates.
Trying to get back into the gaming scene, things aren't sparking my interest on the role playing front, I have a few leads on that, and we'll see. A couple of people have told me about some new live action role plays that have started up, but I'm still a bit apprehensive on joining.
So I just came to a realization that I have been finding myself attracted to girls in committed relationships. I have to stop doing this. I’m aware of the psychological implications that this brings, and I’m pretty sure where it stems from. In the past few years I also found myself attracting girls who were non committal, or girls that where just fresh out of a relationship (and most of the time they’re right back in another one after we starting being friendly.)
I’ve been trying to read up how I can change my mindset, and so far it hasn’t been an easy process. I’m trying to find ways to get myself out more, and actually go on a date or two, even if it’s a friendly one. I’m pretty apprehensive about going out with girls I already know, because I’m the kind of person who prefers not to continue a friendship after I’m done dating someone.
I’ve also been pining for a girl who broke my heart a few summers ago, and I know that I shouldn’t be since, she most likely doesn’t think about me, and most likely was dating someone while we spent time together. Needless to say, I’d say more about her, but I would rather not because there are too many people that would know her from my home town, and the last thing I would want to do is spread that kind of gossip.
Don’t say I’m not trying, because I really am. It’s just tough sometimes.