Yep. I should do something about this sometime.
I'd go on a rambling rant about it, but I'd rather just tell people to shut the hell up already.
Perhaps I'll write more in the future. Need ideas.
Not much happened over the summer, went on a few dates over the summer with this one girl, but things really didn't spark between us (well she seemed to feel different, but I wasn't too into her.) I finally stopped talking to her after she pulled off some really stupid things on our last meet up. Needless to say I've learned a few things from that experience, and I really can't say it's all too negative really. It was fun while it lasted, and at least I can take that. Now I just have to find some more dates.
Trying to get back into the gaming scene, things aren't sparking my interest on the role playing front, I have a few leads on that, and we'll see. A couple of people have told me about some new live action role plays that have started up, but I'm still a bit apprehensive on joining.
So I just came to a realization that I have been finding myself attracted to girls in committed relationships. I have to stop doing this. I’m aware of the psychological implications that this brings, and I’m pretty sure where it stems from. In the past few years I also found myself attracting girls who were non committal, or girls that where just fresh out of a relationship (and most of the time they’re right back in another one after we starting being friendly.)
I’ve been trying to read up how I can change my mindset, and so far it hasn’t been an easy process. I’m trying to find ways to get myself out more, and actually go on a date or two, even if it’s a friendly one. I’m pretty apprehensive about going out with girls I already know, because I’m the kind of person who prefers not to continue a friendship after I’m done dating someone.
I’ve also been pining for a girl who broke my heart a few summers ago, and I know that I shouldn’t be since, she most likely doesn’t think about me, and most likely was dating someone while we spent time together. Needless to say, I’d say more about her, but I would rather not because there are too many people that would know her from my home town, and the last thing I would want to do is spread that kind of gossip.
Don’t say I’m not trying, because I really am. It’s just tough sometimes.