So I just came to a realization that I have been finding myself attracted to girls in committed relationships. I have to stop doing this. I’m aware of the psychological implications that this brings, and I’m pretty sure where it stems from. In the past few years I also found myself attracting girls who were non committal, or girls that where just fresh out of a relationship (and most of the time they’re right back in another one after we starting being friendly.)
I’ve been trying to read up how I can change my mindset, and so far it hasn’t been an easy process. I’m trying to find ways to get myself out more, and actually go on a date or two, even if it’s a friendly one. I’m pretty apprehensive about going out with girls I already know, because I’m the kind of person who prefers not to continue a friendship after I’m done dating someone.
I’ve also been pining for a girl who broke my heart a few summers ago, and I know that I shouldn’t be since, she most likely doesn’t think about me, and most likely was dating someone while we spent time together. Needless to say, I’d say more about her, but I would rather not because there are too many people that would know her from my home town, and the last thing I would want to do is spread that kind of gossip.
Don’t say I’m not trying, because I really am. It’s just tough sometimes.